I watch reports on CNN and I read about Hernandez and his two alleged accomplices online and in newspapers. And I’ve learned about the victim Odin Lloyd, a semipro football player. I didn’t know there were semipro football players.

I keep rearranging the furniture in my mind, trying to understand how a 23-year-old who has it all — and I mean he has everything — could do what he’s accused of doing.

It seems Hernandez was involved in Lloyd’s murder. He may even have been involved in a double homicide before that. And he may have shot another man’s eye out. How does this happen to a man with athletic grace and a winning smile, to a man with the look of a hero?

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